I still don’t know what to do with this.

It’s been days since I finished this, and I still don’t know what I think about it. I don’t even know if I liked it or if I hated it or if it was a good ending or a bad ending, or if it was even an ending. Like, yes, OBVIOUSLY it was an ending literally because the series is over, but good endings FEEL like endings, you know? Does that answer my question as to whether this is good or not? I have no idea. Seriously, I’ve been thinking and thinking about this and I don’t even know what to think about while I’m thinking about trying to think about it!

S0 I guess for now I’m going to leave it at no rating. I’ll probably re-read the last six volumes sometime, just because I’ve read the first six twice and they have to match. But I think I also need to re-process here.

For now, here are some scattered thoughts:

• The first part featured our heroes going into an Arthurian romance to find the Holy Grail, and while it was sort of fun, it didn’t feel like finale-worthy stuff. I don’t know.
• It definitely all feels less mysterious than it did at the beginning, when it all felt like discovering this magical puzzle. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing, as long as you trade the mystery in for enlightenment. I’m just not sure that we did?
• I wish Richie and Lizzie had played a bigger role and mattered a little bit more for their own sakes and not for Tom’s.
• I do think that the ending was fitting and poetical, but I’m not sure I felt it?

Everything I write feels like it needs a question mark after it.

I do think this wasn’t *bad*, now that I’m forcing myself to process it, but I’m just not sure it was right? Or maybe I just don’t get it right now, and will in the future.